Willing to do so?

What are the situation between I and them?
I have no idea actually...

Confusing...
As I am unlikely to be more closer with them
Was I too nervous? Or why I just feel uncomfortable?
I love them, atleast I feel that I care of them, I miss them, and I would like to hear their voice...
But why I refused for the next step? Such as a France's kiss?

One of him cannot commit with me now,
As he is still working hard and earning more.
One of him already in a commitment,
Impossible to give me any promise.

Sometimes I found that I am lost..
I doubt, why I still willing to get into this situation?
Why?