Who can be trusted?

Have coffee with the first him
Asked for marry and have a baby..
He said no money, and it's hard to survive for having a family now..
but why he said R.O.M in anytime last time?
Rubbish..Haha

Asked the second him..about the kiss..
He said because of alcohol and since he has alone more than 3 years..
He said I'm attractive to tempt him
Make him lost control and had the impulse...
He said he likes me..but maybe I'm not his cup of the tea..
What are the funniest thing i heard form him since i knew him.

The third guy, can't commit with me..
Yeah, i never request since i know he has commitment..
He said he wanna leave me to release me the freedom but he's not willing..
Since he cares me, and likes me..
But what about a baby?
No, he said that's impossible unless..
And he stopped. What a shit?

No, they are not, but I am the stupidest in the world..
Who can be trusted? No one but only me, myself...
How can I simply to forget it? How can??!

Something Wrong?

I have never been the worst situation as now..
I was wrong, at the first...
Opss, I am wrong..not "was"..
As the situation didn't change at all..

Seems like..my heart and my felling changed..a bit..?
I missed him last weekend, but not him, and him..
Orrhh.. God, what I'm thinking? What I'm doing?
What's wrong with me?

There must be something wrong..
Let me find it out..
Give me some times please..

Refreshment needed

Day by day, month by month...
The earth works without permission, and it is no need in fact..
We are still the same, or maybe better or worst?
I have no any idea actually.

Sometimes, we sweet like honey..
Sometimes, we far such as an ages..
I'm not really like the feel, but what's else?

Follow the instruction from the god,
Follow the way where just in front of me..
I have no idea to ask, and care about this such stupid things..
I'm tire, and I need a fresh air, from the earth...from the deep..
Refresh myself, my life.. my soul...