What I wish, A little cute girl... :)

I wish I must have a little boy long time ago..
Maybe i have a traditional and narrow minded on that time,
Or maybe effected by my family,
Guy is needed in a family, for the next generation.

Changed my mind recently..
I wish that I can have a little cute girl...with him,
But he is not really willing..and of cause worrying..
Considering how to give the girl/boy a healthy environment without dad ?
He is really rationality but am I really not?

Why him? Why not others who is around me?
Because I love him?
Not really, but a comfortable feeling around, when I with him..
As I told doctor..

I am/was sick..Maybe,
But I can't admit.. I'm happy, comfortable when with him,
If compare with another him.

I wish I have a little cute girl now,
No need him to carry my baby and I..
But my girl must be with me,
No matter how hard of the front way!

It'll be a suffer way to be a Single Mum,
And maybe it quite irresponsible for the girl/boy..
But I know, I will love him/her more than I think!

Pity Silly girl..

I always depress,
May be with the reason,
but sometimes without...

Yesterday I think i make my female senior unhappy,
But if you ask me, did i wrong?
No, I actually just asked the doubt on my mind,
And I am not really accept the reason and answer from her.

I tried to talk her today, but response as expected..
Haha... How come I always so stupid and make myself in an awkward situation?
I can't stop to laugh at myself,
I am a stupid fellow!

I am unhappy, and wondering the way..
To cheer myself up!

Buy me a coffee and some cookies?
Latte with skim milk and oatmeal raisin cookies please...

Haha..
See, I am doing stupid things again..
Who I expect he/she will do that?

My pity silly girl...